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About the 'Artist Bewares'
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So yeah, there are some artist beware's currently in my name, and I just want to clear the air on some things.
I never, Never, not once, intended to scam or go offline for as long as I did. I've always delivered my commissions, and to the best of my ability, making sure I put my heart into it.
I fully intended to finish. Even the call-outs on Twitter (Thanks for not blocking out my email, by the way.), you can see I was working on them but was interrupted during the process.
My reason for disappearing was simple. I gave my discord out too eagerly as a way of contact regarding commissions, and the result was verbal harassment from some of you, including vague threats over artwork. Some even refused to give me space, and send me messages 24/7. Some contacted me 4+ times a day, for things not regarding commissions or anything professional. Some examples of what I'm talking about;
Some of you also felt entitled enough to hunt me down on steam and other game platforms, to send me multiple friend requests or messages, essentially harassing me online.
My mental illness and introverted-like shyness couldn't handle it, and when I refused to be friends with people from DA that I didn't know, some of you resorted to name-calling, rumor spreading, and many other unsavory things, like children.
I never, Never, not once, intended to scam or go offline for as long as I did. I've always delivered my commissions, and to the best of my ability, making sure I put my heart into it.
I fully intended to finish. Even the call-outs on Twitter (Thanks for not blocking out my email, by the way.), you can see I was working on them but was interrupted during the process.
My reason for disappearing was simple. I gave my discord out too eagerly as a way of contact regarding commissions, and the result was verbal harassment from some of you, including vague threats over artwork. Some even refused to give me space, and send me messages 24/7. Some contacted me 4+ times a day, for things not regarding commissions or anything professional. Some examples of what I'm talking about;
- So I went on Vacation, and...
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- (Please click on the links, they have stuff in em too)
Some of you also felt entitled enough to hunt me down on steam and other game platforms, to send me multiple friend requests or messages, essentially harassing me online.
My mental illness and introverted-like shyness couldn't handle it, and when I refused to be friends with people from DA that I didn't know, some of you resorted to name-calling, rumor spreading, and many other unsavory things, like children.
- Understand that in the past, many have tried to be my friend, and 90% of those people only wanted to Brag about knowing me, namedrop to their friends, or receive free art because "that's what friends do".
- I also left my old discord due to the harassment, understandably. So reaching me there since June/July was pointless, because of the harassment.
I will give refunds - that's no issue at all, I knew it would happen the second I made the decision to cut contact due to the above reasons. I only wanted to make this post to let people know why, and let people understand the other side of the story. I never meant for it to reach this point, or for it to ever come off as a scam, and I mean that sincerely.
I know I was terrible at communication. It had nothing to do with just commissions, I'm like that with my friends and family. When I'm going through something traumatic like above; I zone out and cut contact as a way to limit the negativity in my life. It's blatant fear, and it's a toxic trait of my own, and for that, I am very sorry that it ever affected any relationships I have in my life.
The only thing I will say in my defense, is I may have left social media, but anyone who ever ordered a commission from me for the past 5 years has my email, it wasn't hidden in the callout, it's there for anyone to use, and no one emailed me anything. So please stop claiming "Reached out with every communication possible" when the only outlets you used were social media.
- since I know some will want proof, here's everything I've gotten in my email since before this started;
(Honestly, the fact some of you will even ask to view my email is utterly atrocious but might as well save some time)
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This will also, essentially, be my formal goodbye.
I maybe should have posted this before, but I wasn't so sure back in the summer that I wanted to be gone, but I believe at this point, I will be.
I work in customer service as a cashier, and I receive enough abuse from customers on a daily basis, and I don't need it coming from online just as much as the 8/1-2 hours I put in every day at my job. I will no longer be taking commissions, doing adopts, trades, anything that involves dealing with more public than I need to. I will be leaving this site once all of the above regarding refunds is done, because the harassment I've received the past few years, this last year especially - is so toxic, I can't handle it anymore. It has truly crippled me. Thanks for the good times I did rarely have, and thanks for giving me the chance at 14 to grow to the adult I am today.
To those who were wonderful, I'm sorry if this comes as a shock or a disappointment, but you can thank those that took it into their hands to take advantage of someone over something as minimal as wanting to be friends with someone who drew better than they did. Not to mention, the joy I once had in art is non-existent now.
For the Refunds; since my email wasn't blotted out... you can reach me there. I will only respond to email at this point, keep it professional, and off social media considering I'm leaving for however long I need after this.
Link to Twitter; Sigyn has it; my email is in there. (www.deviantart.com/sigynx/stat…)
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Some people are messaging Sigyn saying they want the art still, if so, email me, let me know, I'll finish it this week and we can end on a good note.
If you want the money back, the same thing, we can end on a good note.
Since people can't find it on the twitter callout link; leopardshadow2011@gmail.com
I know I was terrible at communication. It had nothing to do with just commissions, I'm like that with my friends and family. When I'm going through something traumatic like above; I zone out and cut contact as a way to limit the negativity in my life. It's blatant fear, and it's a toxic trait of my own, and for that, I am very sorry that it ever affected any relationships I have in my life.
The only thing I will say in my defense, is I may have left social media, but anyone who ever ordered a commission from me for the past 5 years has my email, it wasn't hidden in the callout, it's there for anyone to use, and no one emailed me anything. So please stop claiming "Reached out with every communication possible" when the only outlets you used were social media.
- since I know some will want proof, here's everything I've gotten in my email since before this started;
(Honestly, the fact some of you will even ask to view my email is utterly atrocious but might as well save some time)
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This will also, essentially, be my formal goodbye.
I maybe should have posted this before, but I wasn't so sure back in the summer that I wanted to be gone, but I believe at this point, I will be.
I work in customer service as a cashier, and I receive enough abuse from customers on a daily basis, and I don't need it coming from online just as much as the 8/1-2 hours I put in every day at my job. I will no longer be taking commissions, doing adopts, trades, anything that involves dealing with more public than I need to. I will be leaving this site once all of the above regarding refunds is done, because the harassment I've received the past few years, this last year especially - is so toxic, I can't handle it anymore. It has truly crippled me. Thanks for the good times I did rarely have, and thanks for giving me the chance at 14 to grow to the adult I am today.
To those who were wonderful, I'm sorry if this comes as a shock or a disappointment, but you can thank those that took it into their hands to take advantage of someone over something as minimal as wanting to be friends with someone who drew better than they did. Not to mention, the joy I once had in art is non-existent now.
For the Refunds; since my email wasn't blotted out... you can reach me there. I will only respond to email at this point, keep it professional, and off social media considering I'm leaving for however long I need after this.
Link to Twitter; Sigyn has it; my email is in there. (www.deviantart.com/sigynx/stat…)
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Some people are messaging Sigyn saying they want the art still, if so, email me, let me know, I'll finish it this week and we can end on a good note.
If you want the money back, the same thing, we can end on a good note.
Since people can't find it on the twitter callout link; leopardshadow2011@gmail.com
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So I went on Vacation, and...
3 min read
It's come to my attention that a LOT of people are mad I haven't been on discord answering messages, and honestly, I'm a little ticked.
It's July, and most who actually know me, know it's a busy month. My sister Victoria turned 19 on the Second, and the First is Canada Day.
The 15th was Gillian's 10th birthday, and my Uncle Allen and Sisters childhood friend Brooke, have all come from my hometown of Ontario to visit the family for said birthdays.
Not to mention, the night of the 14th Justin and I slept over at my parents, and have been spending the last days (Until this morning) at Blue Lake Resort (A campsite in the mountains in British Columbia, where I live) that's 3 hours from home if not more. My cat was ALSO at the vets (for a dumb reason). Anyone who has me on Facebook knows this.
I've had about 6 people angry I didn't respond to their messages since Monday when I went camping.
All I will say is;
a.) I'm allowed a Vacation.
b.) It's summer, expect vacations.
c.) I don't have to tell you where I am at all times.
I don't owe you all that information, just because you have me on Discord.
My Discord name is under IsharaHeart, not "Lindsey Andrew" because it's also a workplace.
Please let Artists live their lives. We CHOOSE to share it with you, don't abuse that. If I don't answer in 1-4 days, it's not because I'm avoiding you, or hate you, it's most likely because I'm also trying to balance my life, as I don't live on the internet (I did when I was 16 but that's another story). Please don't be passive-aggressive to artists, it doesn't make us want to be friends with you if you don't let us also live our lives. We may have put information about us online, and shared our passions, but knowing these things and knowing ME are 2 different things.
If you message me, I will get back to you. I'm sorry if this Journal seems uptight, It's just getting to a point where Instant Messaging seems to be doing more harm than good to people. It's there, it's useful, but It's not a gateway into my life, please, please respect my inbox if you have me on Discord/Skype. I never leave people un-read.
-Ishara
It's July, and most who actually know me, know it's a busy month. My sister Victoria turned 19 on the Second, and the First is Canada Day.
The 15th was Gillian's 10th birthday, and my Uncle Allen and Sisters childhood friend Brooke, have all come from my hometown of Ontario to visit the family for said birthdays.
Not to mention, the night of the 14th Justin and I slept over at my parents, and have been spending the last days (Until this morning) at Blue Lake Resort (A campsite in the mountains in British Columbia, where I live) that's 3 hours from home if not more. My cat was ALSO at the vets (for a dumb reason). Anyone who has me on Facebook knows this.
I've had about 6 people angry I didn't respond to their messages since Monday when I went camping.
All I will say is;
a.) I'm allowed a Vacation.
b.) It's summer, expect vacations.
c.) I don't have to tell you where I am at all times.
I don't owe you all that information, just because you have me on Discord.
My Discord name is under IsharaHeart, not "Lindsey Andrew" because it's also a workplace.
Please let Artists live their lives. We CHOOSE to share it with you, don't abuse that. If I don't answer in 1-4 days, it's not because I'm avoiding you, or hate you, it's most likely because I'm also trying to balance my life, as I don't live on the internet (I did when I was 16 but that's another story). Please don't be passive-aggressive to artists, it doesn't make us want to be friends with you if you don't let us also live our lives. We may have put information about us online, and shared our passions, but knowing these things and knowing ME are 2 different things.
If you message me, I will get back to you. I'm sorry if this Journal seems uptight, It's just getting to a point where Instant Messaging seems to be doing more harm than good to people. It's there, it's useful, but It's not a gateway into my life, please, please respect my inbox if you have me on Discord/Skype. I never leave people un-read.
-Ishara
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My lack of Absence - Explained
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Hey lion cubs, long time, no talk. I wanted to apologize for the inactivity. I'm sure you've all noticed I've been gone since the end of February, and until now.
I won't get into too much detail, but some things happened to my relationship and financial status, and for a while, I thought I was losing my apartment. Yes - Justin and I are fine and we worked it out, and yes, I still have my apartment.
But I realized I was living online, and not working on myself and things that needed to be done, and I was hiding from things that I shouldn't be. I'm not 16, I'm 22, I have responsibilities I just have to face.
I have over 4000 messages to go through, and I know some of you have been waiting to hear from me. I'll be answering them all this week, and uploading over 15 works of art since my hiatus, and things that were done BEFORE my hiatus.
I truly am sorry if my lack of appearance has hurt anyone, or made anyone upset (Please feel free to message me to sort anything out, I'm more than willing), but I am back now and in the future, I'll try not to just 'disappear' on you guys.
Love and kisses always, Ishy.
I won't get into too much detail, but some things happened to my relationship and financial status, and for a while, I thought I was losing my apartment. Yes - Justin and I are fine and we worked it out, and yes, I still have my apartment.
But I realized I was living online, and not working on myself and things that needed to be done, and I was hiding from things that I shouldn't be. I'm not 16, I'm 22, I have responsibilities I just have to face.
I have over 4000 messages to go through, and I know some of you have been waiting to hear from me. I'll be answering them all this week, and uploading over 15 works of art since my hiatus, and things that were done BEFORE my hiatus.
I truly am sorry if my lack of appearance has hurt anyone, or made anyone upset (Please feel free to message me to sort anything out, I'm more than willing), but I am back now and in the future, I'll try not to just 'disappear' on you guys.
Love and kisses always, Ishy.
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Twitter's You Should Follow!!!
2 min read
(Im a little Biased, some of these farts are my friends but they deserve a shout out every now and then, I also might make it a habit to feature some cool blogs I find)
twitter.com/HowikinArt Howiikin is a wonderful artist, and she's a really good fine arts student. Like wowie her paintings and sketches shock me because you don't see them on her Deviantart. Give her a follow!
twitter.com/LokiDrawz Not too sure if she has a Deviantart, but oh my goodness her Art. I love that sketchy painty style? Also Warriors how could you not.
twitter.com/Vixieart A really good illustrator and Art director, very interesting use of anatomy and 'big' eyes. Her female characters are also really intriguing.
twitter.com/TheTater03 It's Tatertots! My husboo from the past! She does great doodles and funny little skits. Consider her a follow for a goofy time of fun.
twitter.com/Sigyrn New to Twitface as I am, and one of my closest boos. But she's an aspiring artist, and her sketches are so neat to see, I love seeing Artists grow. Should support her too <3
twitter.com/PureSpiritFlowr It's Pure! Filled with fun WC doodles and reblogs. If you love WC's as much as I do, consider supporting her on Twitter.
twitter.com/bawfle Memes and Art. What's not to love from The Bawfle-monster? Follow my wife -slams desk- do it.
twitter.com/ritwells Okay seriously this dood. His backgrounds and characters are just... Ya gotta just roam under 'Media' to see what I'm talking about.
twitter.com/aandlatitude Okay, okay, I get it. "Ishara there's Thorki art here ew" okay well CAN WE TALK ABOUT HER SKETCHES? AND HER HANDS? HOW DOES SHE DO IT. I love her colors and sketches okay, also let me ship what I want
twitter.com/Centch She has a really cute Pikachu oc and I really love all the PINK, sue me.
twitter.com/HowikinArt Howiikin is a wonderful artist, and she's a really good fine arts student. Like wowie her paintings and sketches shock me because you don't see them on her Deviantart. Give her a follow!twitter.com/LokiDrawz Not too sure if she has a Deviantart, but oh my goodness her Art. I love that sketchy painty style? Also Warriors how could you not.
twitter.com/Vixieart A really good illustrator and Art director, very interesting use of anatomy and 'big' eyes. Her female characters are also really intriguing.
twitter.com/TheTater03 It's Tatertots! My husboo from the past! She does great doodles and funny little skits. Consider her a follow for a goofy time of fun. twitter.com/Sigyrn New to Twitface as I am, and one of my closest boos. But she's an aspiring artist, and her sketches are so neat to see, I love seeing Artists grow. Should support her too <3 twitter.com/PureSpiritFlowr It's Pure! Filled with fun WC doodles and reblogs. If you love WC's as much as I do, consider supporting her on Twitter. twitter.com/bawfle Memes and Art. What's not to love from The Bawfle-monster? Follow my wife -slams desk- do it.twitter.com/ritwells Okay seriously this dood. His backgrounds and characters are just... Ya gotta just roam under 'Media' to see what I'm talking about.
twitter.com/aandlatitude Okay, okay, I get it. "Ishara there's Thorki art here ew" okay well CAN WE TALK ABOUT HER SKETCHES? AND HER HANDS? HOW DOES SHE DO IT. I love her colors and sketches okay, also let me ship what I want
twitter.com/Centch She has a really cute Pikachu oc and I really love all the PINK, sue me.
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Cub Adoptable PNG's - And More Coming!
1 min read
sta.sh/21l2rx058q7?edit=1 <--- PNG's of the Cubs.
Sorry, it took a few days to get them all Organized, I've been looking after my 9-year-old sister for 2 days back. She goes back home on the 4th haha.
Kids take up a lot of time, and I've not really had too much time, been using my phone a lot.
Results from this:
And for those asking, yes there will be a "Round Two", they will be submitted on the 20th of January. : )
Characters included this round will be;
Yusevi
Matthias
<da:thumb id="4413116697971244"/> Kayako
Kukwama
Leva
Sorry, it took a few days to get them all Organized, I've been looking after my 9-year-old sister for 2 days back. She goes back home on the 4th haha.
Kids take up a lot of time, and I've not really had too much time, been using my phone a lot.
Results from this:
And for those asking, yes there will be a "Round Two", they will be submitted on the 20th of January. : )
Characters included this round will be;
Yusevi
Matthias
<da:thumb id="4413116697971244"/> Kayako
Kukwama
Leva
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